I try to stay positive as much as possible but there are (obviously) some things about this that are just terrible and difficult to deal with. The reason that I was in the hospital for so long was because we were dealing with pain management and trying to get my pain under control. This took weeks and there was more to it than just a battle between me and the cancer that burrowed into my body.
I have talked about some of the amazing nurses and hospital staff that have supported me during my time at the hospital. But, my experiences with the staff here has not been all positive. When it comes to discussing my pain management, I have been made to feel helpless and to doubt myself and my ability to control my own body and what it needs.
This process has been difficult and frustrating and, at time, heartbreaking. I am thankful to be home now surrounded by people that I choose and that are invested in me as a person and not just a patient. And I cannot say enough times how thankful I am for my family.